To be, or not to be?

   Please, be reminded that the Title of the entry brings no significance to anybody's life, belonging, or chicken curry.

   See, I've got lots to write, but time isnt really a friend of mine, and thus I didnt write anything. then, as time flows on, lots of other stuff happened, which I want to write also, but then time still hates me, so I didnt write. This has been going on for quite a while (specifically 2 years), and now I dont feel like writing any of it anymore. It's as if I have become emotionless to the things I have great feelings for in the past, and such a thing scars me inside. So right now, the question remains, "Should I write them, or should I not?"

   Please, be reminded again that the Title of the entry still doesn't bring any significance to anybody's life, belonging, or chicken curry.

   So, after a day of meditation with myself and a playlist of Guitar hero songs, here's what I am gonna do. Imma write all that is sposed to be written in between my 2 year hiatus before I started writing again this year. It's gonna be, like, A LOT of stuff, so readers, u can just skip it all, less u are interested in my life progression since the middle year of Form 5 up till now. So anyway, lets get it all over and done! :DD

Going back the road of memories...

   Well, my own memories are kinda blur, so there might be a few details left out, but still, here goes. It was after the mid-terms, of which I kinda flunked. It was then when I realised how darn of a slacker I am, who never studies for anything. (I hate chemistry. tetibe.) ... ok, now I dah xde semangat nak tulis lagi. -.- (semua salah chemistry. damn!) OMG this is soo boring. well, anyway, lets just say I finished High school, with an SPM slip I dunno if I should be proud of. END OF HIGH SCHOOL, YAYYY~!!!! kahkahkah pemalasnya aku!!!

   Ok, next I went through PLKN, n then I got into UiTM, which is part of my life dream. Malaysia is so nice. :) oh, just for the pleasure of it, letak la sikit gambar kenangan.

Sekolah Terchenta~

Pemandangan Indah gila nak mampos lagi boleh tak?

Semesta... Gemilang... Terbilang... :')

Memori dik-adik dorm terchenta ngan trophy besar sebijik :DD rindu plak diorang ni..

Bersama makcik Dewan Makan~!! XD we love you~!!

Abg senior A104, F2F :P

Memori hari terakhir bersama budak dorm, meninggalkan "Legend", iaitu baju yg ditulis kata2 terakhir :')

Memori lepak bilik ketua pelajar :D

Memori lukis komik for cikgu bahasa German, Sie Anne~ :) Deutch Ist Super!

Memori english debate team~

Memori jejaka2 debate n debat bm. :')

1st line-up English debaters~!

Memori dapat piala best debater XD

Memori reka binatang x berguna langsung..

Memori "Bulan Paling Chantek seluruh Alam"

Memori makan2 bersama rakan~

Memori "empat yg paling rapat" :')

Memori sekumpulan org yg pelik/menarik

Memori rakan se-dorm terbaik~! Go Amar~!

Memori rumah sukan menang byk award :D

Memori hari terakhir, lepak padang :)

Memori hari sukan. hee~

Memori best friend. :')

Memori menembak @ PLKN

Memori group terchenta @ PLKN :D

 

Memori pakcik askar terbaik @ PLKN :'D

  

   ... Now I want to cry.

   A lot has happened in my life, but there are stuff that I have mercilessly forgotten. A bundle of feelings of which can never return to me.. knowing such a fact makes me wanna kill myself.. Damn. 

   That's why.. that's why I'll write everything down, starting now. No more letting memories fly. I want to remember everything. every single feeling, every single emotion.. especially now, when my heart has been affected, in more ways than one. ... but lets save that for another day. 

   Now, if u are someone who knows my style of writing, u could see I'm starting to blabber, of which I truly am.. after placing the above photos, a deep, deep conviction in the deepest part of my being is now rumbling back to life, and at the moment I am shaken by a rush of emotion, or rather a mix of emotions. Its getting hard for me to write, so I'd better get myself together again. In any case, this entry has given me light, both to my untouched past, and my blinded future.. urrghh damn these feelings. but I guess to feel is to be human. I can't be empirical forever, now can I? sigh. 

   I dunno what to feel or write anymore, so toodles~ 

   -The Confused F2F-

To write is to continue living.

it seems like I'm dying tho.. -.-'

To know a person is to see them angered, and to see them sad

Plus, you need to ride a 3-day bus ride, sit side by side, and not get bored. kahkah


ADDITIONAL STUFF

   Today was something. We Are 2D! We, We, Are 2D~!! I've always known that 2D is the best group EVA, but today that feeling has strengthen in a way so significant, significance brings no meaning anymore. i have never had any group-heart talk anytime in my life, so today was history.

   Today was something.

   Drama, new hairdo, late, drinks, food, waiting, internal drama, more waiting, colourful clothes, Princess Consort of Wales, attacks, tears, lunch and newspapers, heart-talk, attacks, tears, more attacks, more tears, pity, tears with contact lenses, pain, causes more tears, understanding, gratitude, apologies, commitment, talks, a woman of no importance, plastic faces, laughs, emotional, friend backstabbing, group E (feat. Maya), refusal of hall, wait some more, dancing, royal creed, Wales~, more dancing, more peasants, Literature, WE ARE 2D, WE, WE ARE 2D~!!

   I love u guysssss~ mari pergi pesta muda-mudi sama2 :D

To marry is to put one on a throne

To do anything else is simply to put one in a waiting list.

To feel is to be human

Ustazah Mahfuzah sgt comel. :p

To be competent is to be empirical

To eat is to be happy

   They say nothing beats mom's cooking. If you live in my household, this is excessively true. It was a normal morning when my mom gave a royal creed.

   "Malam ni ibu masak roast chicken."

   The citizens roared in joy.

Roasting... roasting...

Done~! (if you were there you would die of the aroma. literally.)

Served with roast potatoes, wild mushrooms, toast bread and creamy gravy.

Sila ke tepi KFC/Kenny Rogers/Nando's/Ayam Penyet/Meat Works/Tony Roma's/Cafe Intec...

   A very very wise man once said;

         "Marry a woman who can cook, and you dont need Playstation 3 to be happy"



   ADDITIONAL STUFF

   I am back in Shah Alam. "Yay" to those who made it here early~! BOOYAHHH~!! anyway, seeing how the semester's bout to end, i have tons of work to do. Given the situation, i dont think i'll be doing any good to my pointers if i continue procrastinating. and if my pointers get worse, i'd have to say goodbye to society as i will Die. (plus the fact that i wont get a PS3, but still, i'd die, so the consequences dont match, coz theres no use for a PS3 if i die... why in heavens am i even elaborating on this? -.-)

   For such reasons, i think i'd better get serious with studies. but when i think about studies, i think about degrees. then i think about me going to Language Academy. then i think about leaving TESL. then i get sad. :'(

   warlohlohlohlohloh~~~!!!!
   I miss guitar hero.

Yes, aku mmg xde keje tulis benda jadah ni sumer. :p

To be Chinese is to celebrate CNY

   The title is self explanatory. 

 pagi bermula dgn sausage puffs.

Ayuh menyambut CNY!!! ingatlah ancestor2 anda!!

semua org makan masakan cina di fudcourt Midvalley tercinta.

Papa n Mama cina.

Abang n adik cina.

Makanan cina habis.

Perayaan cina. 

Pintu gerbang cina.

Ayah cina.

Bonda cina.

 Adik-beradik cina.

Abg cina posing.

Mat cina posing.

Adik cina posing.

 

Adik-beradik cina lagi. 

 Adik beradik cina lagi (2)

 

 Adik cina solo.

 Mat cina baru perasan x boleh amek gambar rupanya.

 Cold storage pon menyambut CNY. anda bila lagi?

   In any case, im actually postin' this coz the blogger said they improved the picture posting stuff, and so i wanna try it out. :p

   Still, today was fun. It makes me feel nice to be a part of the Chinese community. now, if only I could be a part of the orang asli/sumazan/sandakan/kadazan dusun/murut/jawa/gawai/orang ulu.. I bet i can celebrate a whole lot more festivities. ceyt. im hungry -.-